Well... I came really close to kicking my New Year's Resolution in the ass... but I got lazy and didn't. You guessed it folks- I read 49/50 books in 2010. I doubt I have time to read another in the 24 minutes I have left in the year.

But what can I say? We make mistakes; we learn from them. So here are all the mistakes I made in 2010:
- I was afraid to get involved with someone who I was certain no one would approve of.
- I sacrificed valuable friendships for the sake of "popularity."
- I was a snob to the other girl who didn't make section leader right back to her.
- I also talked smack about people behind their backs.
- I let my commitment to God totally slide this year.
- I wasted my talents. Instead of practicing I read books or played on my gameboy.
- I didn't work out very often.
- I focused on the negative things.
- I let my room get totally messy.
- I didn't paint it like I said I would.
- I backed into another car because I was too cocky to turn around and look. Luckily no damage was done, but still.
- I wasted too much time on the computer.
- I constantly compared myself to others.
- I didn't get along sometimes with my sisters or parents.
- I judged. A lot.
- I hid behind a self-created wall.

Hopefully, in the coming year, all those "Oops"-es will cease to be such because I'll have learned something from them. In the end things usually have a habit of turning out okay, yannoe?
and if you're wondering what my new challenge is going to be this year... well, I have like ten minutes to decide. I'll letcha know.


New crush.

I wish I could do this.
Plus, the guy is cute.
Not to mention like one of my favorite songs ever.

While I'm here I'll use blogger as my notepad and post my to do list.
-shower and get dressed.
-go outside and take pictures of the snow before it all melts.
-possibly eat lunch.
-do all of apush project short of the illustrations, though it can't hurt to start those.
-clean up room.


So if you're wondering...

My grandmother flew up from Florida and is with us for Christmas! Yay. She's a cute, wrinkly old lady who dyes her receding hair a blondish color and doesn't sit up straight. She's really cute though. She's just so old timey. I think she's like 85. Or something. She was either born in 1927 or 1929. I don't remember which. But anyway. We took her to the art museum the other day and I pushed her around in a wheelchair and she was so cute.

But anyway, if you're wondering, I did in fact get a ukulele. And winter drum line. And Miike Snow and Neutral Milk Hotel CD's, and the Kiki's Delivery Service Japanese soundtrack, and of course winter drum line, and a ton of hair stuff and liquid eyeliner, and gloves. And a new fuzzy blanket!

Sooooo... merry christmas to all and to all a good night!


hey sorry again

I'm kind of preoccupied with watching Pokemon reruns right now.



My mother keeps nagging me to make a Christmas wish list. I feel bad because they're always complaining how we don't have money, and asking for presents kind of destroys the point of Christmas... but still, I'm going to make a list haha.

1. Ukulele
2. Kiki's Delivery Service sountrack - Japanese version
3. Winter drum line!
4. Oboe repairs
5. New jeans
6. Melodica?
7. Any CD by Miike Snow
8. Harry Potter 7 movie
9. New shoes!
10. Can't go wrong with nail polish...

and now i'm just making up stuff. I've already been promised the only things I'd actually be sad without.. Winter drum line, I'm doing, my oboe already is fixed and fine, and they promised me a ukulele bought from a local store. I picked it out myself but I can't have it until Christmas haha. Wow all music stuff.

The thing I want most of all but know I can't have is the trip to Belize. I junior curate at a museum and take care of the animals, and the group goes on an international trip to usually south or central America each year. This year it's Belize. I reallllly want to go because we're going scuba diving, canoeing, visiting preserves, and all sorts of wonderful stuff, but it's $4,000. argh.

Also, my parents argue that if I can't even handle the idea of going to college 20 minutes away, how am I going to do a couple thousand miles? Well... invalid argument, vacation is different than leaving forever. Sigh. But we're not going to think about that, because this week I am happy and breakdown free.

but anyway, my lovely readers, I hope your Christmas lists are satisfied and I hope you can fulfill those of others! :D


i knew i was going to have to blog about this

I recently stumbled upon the soundtrack for Home somehow (it's very good), and then I decided to watch the movie.
I really just don't have words to describe it. It's scary what the movie shows. You can watch it for free online here. http://www.goodplanet.org/en/ I mean, some of it seems kind of dramatic for the sake of making a hard hitting mood, but it worked, I tell you.
Honestly I couldn't tell you my stand on global warming. I know that temperatures are rising and I know the negative impacts it has on the environment. I am pretty certain humanity has a hand in the potential destruction of this planet. However, how can we prove that this isn't another one of Earth's natural cycles we're trying to control? Still... the pollution and exploitation of natural resources is undeniable and should be stopped ASAP if we want to have anything left of our planet for years to come.

So... If you have a spare hour and a half lying around, I highly recommend watching it.

If you can believe it, I told my Marine Ecology/APES teacher about my sharks project and Oceana, and he actually tried discouraging me from doing it. And he's the sponsor of the environmental club. wtf? He said go ahead and try, but Senator ******isn't actually going to listen to me.
Now what kind of attitude is that??? I'm a vegetarian, yes, and if only a few people do it, it has virtually no effect. But if more and more people boycott meat, imagine how many animals we could save from cruel conditions, how many people we could feed with grain normally going to the livestock, how much oil we could save by eliminating the transport, how many trees we could save by not clearing land for processing factories. Just saying.
A drop in the bucket is nothing... but a lot of drops in the bucket, now that's something.



i'm going to break my trend of single-digit-monthly-post count this december. yay!

 Here's this thing I found on facebook I decided to do. It makes me look like even more of a square than I already am.

[] Kissed someone before dating
[] Gotten a phone taken away at school
[] Gotten caught chewing gum
[] Gotten caught cheating on a test
Total so far: 0

[] Arrived late to class more than 5 times
[x] Didn't do homework over 5 times
[x] Turned at least 2 projects in late
[] Missed school just because you felt like it
[] Laughed so loud you got kicked out of class
Total so far: 2

[x] Got your mom, dad, etc to get you out of school
[x] Text people during school
[x] Passed notes
[] Threw stuff across the room
[] Laughed at the teacher
Total so far: 5

[x] Took pictures during school hours
[x] Called someone during school hours
[x] Listened to iPod, CD, etc during school hours
Total so far: 8

[] Threw something at the teacher
[] Went outside the classroom without permission
[] Broke the dress code
[] Failed a class
[x] Ate food during class
Total so far:9

[] Gotten a call from school
[] Been called the worst student
[] Punished on a school trip because you behaved badly
[] Didn't take your stuff to school
[]Given a teacher the finger when they weren't looking
Total so far: 10

[] Faked your parents' signature
[x] Slept in class
[x] Cursed at a teacher behind their back
[x] Copied homework
[] Got in trouble with the principal/vice principal/dea
[] Thrown food in the lunch room
Final Result: 12
Multiply by 3. Post as "I screwed up ' 'of my teenage life" . Tag 15 people, they have to do it too. How much of your teenage life have you screwed up

36%. Whatever.

This is kind of a bad test though because lots of these things aren' the same level. Oh well. I'm going to break the single digit post count maybe at least.

Also I'm failing at my 50 books challenge! Any suggestions for short, fast reads, I'm so opened to. Geesh.


Wow, you really read all that? Danggg. Props! =]

Well, I see you've just had the imponderable joy of stumbling onto the blog of an 18-year-old girl who can't really describe herself in 500 words or less, such as in little text boxes like these. She didn't intend her blog to really become so much like her online diary (she was hoping it would have an interesting, helpful purpose to serve the world and all) but blogging is just kind of fun. This girl's a bit of an environmentalist and a full-tilt vegetarian, a bit of an artist who can't draw, a bit of a writer who can't find time to read, and a completely hopeless romantic. She enjoys white chocolate, coloring, wading in creeks, music, Doctor Who, and speaking in third-person when it's unnecessary like this.

Now go read the rest of the blog and meet her, if you like of course. :)