i woke up and my house was gone

just kidding.

Anyways... the month of march is ridiculously busy for me so I figure I'll squeeze in a post now about life and just kind of put this blog on the back burner for the rest of the month.

I was going to write about my birthday now, in case I don't get a chance later. Last week I was at my Confirmation class and we were talking about gifts. One girl said that when her mother was still pregnant with her she made a video, that she would give to her on her sixteenth birthday. She was talking about her being sixteen when she wasn’t even born yet.

I’ll do that for my kids. I think I’ll make a video on my sixteenth birthday. For my daughter. I don’t even know her yet. I don’t know if I’ll even have daughters. Or what if I have more than one? Should I show it to all of them then? I dunno, I was hoping it would be an eldest daughter to eldest daughter heart to heart.

I guess... I’ll talk about my lack of a boyfriend, how I fill my time, some of my worries, my friends, the music I like, my interests, my classes, things that kids like to do, my sisters, my parents and my relationship with them, sex, movies, kissing, boyfriends, friends in general, parties, drugs, school, driving, books I like, values, religion, my hot buttons, boys I like, things I like about boys, fashion, my hopes and dreams, that sort of thing. Teenage girl stuff. Maybe I'll wear some crazy hippie outfit or rad 80's thing as a joke to freak her out, like "omg mom you're so ooooold!" or whatever. Kind of hard to imagine... but still.

The only problem is doing it when the house is empty, because I need to speak up and I don’t want to be spilling my life as a new sixteen year old to apparently no one. I’m actually super excited about this. Maybe I’ll start writing a transcript. Or something... That kind of is lame.

But yeah.