My sister and I do stupid things.

Sometimes when we're mad we drive past crowded public places with the windows down blaring screamo and yelling curse words. Sometimes we order takeout from three different restaurants. Sometimes we pool all of our money together to buy something stupid like a Sims 2 expansion pack.

Last night, we came home kind of late from a party at like 11:30. And at midnight, she came into my room and asked if we could talk. So I let her crawl into my bed and we talked until 4 AM. I had work the next day.. today actually. It was a dumb idea.

But still. We're total opposites. I'm like the artistic dreamer and I'm empathetic and I think a lot about the future, I have all these dreams and plans and emotions to sort out and shit. I'm the shy nice girl.
But she, she isn't selfish, she just needs her space and needs to take care of herself before helping anyone else. She's confident and logical and smart and tells you straight and just sees things for what they are. She doesn't get distracted; she doesn't overanalyze. She told me she feels like a robot, though, because she says she never really feels any emotions like anyone else does.

I guess we all have our problems. And I complain about my whirlwind emotions a lot... but all in all, I'm glad I have them, because emotions are what allow us to help people most, I think.

And I guess that's why everyone comes to me with their problems. I can feel everything. I can feel everyone's pain and empathize with everyone. It's good because I can help them... but all those little residual emotions I don't really feel sometimes come back on days like this when I'm too tired to function properly.

Weird.
I'm just in a weird mood.
Everyone around us is just having trouble emotionally. I don't want her to be next.
I don't need another person to fix.

For some reason

I have decided that one day, I really want a small, fluffy dog



and i will name her  Coco Peaches Kita Lola.

I'm going to college, baby!

So... I got into the college I really want to go to.
High schoollllll... fuck it!!! hahaha jk. but no kind of seriously.

*does happy dance*

things, part 5 (stupid little things that make me happy)

1. Every time I see Van Gogh's Starry Night. It's my favorite painting.
2. Little kids, babies.
3. Puffy clouds.
4. Honestly, Doctor Who. I said I'd write a legit post of that. Whatever.
5. Writing something really good.
6. Overhearing compliments that people didn't intend for me to hear. :)
7. Passing notes.
8. Fuzzy blankets, and the feeling you get when your head hits the pillow after a long day and you pull the covers close. ^^
9. Paper cranes.
10. The games Ninja or Samurai. samurai is a drum line game i guess. can't find a video haha
11. When I connect with some cute guy over an obscure reference (doesn't happen often haha)
12. Driving.
13. Tea.
14. Stargazing.
15. Turning off my alarm, knowing that I can sleep in the next day :)
16. Pokemon.
17. The lights section at Home Depot or something.
18. Salads with honey mustard dressing.
19. Warm sunlight on the porch.
20. Rainy days where you can sit and play the sims all day and no one cares.
21. Doing something stupid and realizing no one cares.
22. Rhymes.
23. Realizing that people care [about you].
24. Silly movies like Scott Pilgrim vs. the World that are based off comics.
25. People who are bilingual.
26. Animals.
27. Shoes.
28. Yellow things.
29. The sound my curtains make when I close them.
30. Getting mail.

did i tell you about my creeper?

The sad thing is, he's the only guy who has ever told me he thinks I'm beautiful.

15 days

until the doctor who christmas special.

<3

Wow.

This is not a real person singing, it's a computer program.

Technology is pretty awesome sometimes!

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Today, one of the guys at work asked me if I was pregnant.
He was serious.
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